Home maker

Yesterday night I watched a movie-English vinglish a hindi movie Sreedevi acted as homemaker, who faces disrespect from her hubby,children.She visits US for a wedding & joins English class to learn English. She is respected&liked & encouraged in her class, by classmates.

Back to pavillion

I will be back in India on 31st March after 3 months. How Iam looking forward to beback with my plants.Iwish & hope I will not hv to make another trip to US. If there is anyplace to go & live it is in a farmland, which is not going to happen, as I am not destined for it. So I hv given up hope for any change, I will try to do maximum work to achieve something with my plants & live happily without fretting, thinking of others, or to say self centered with my plants as long as possible. I dont know how long I live, as I had the dreadful cancer,which shook me badly And made me to realise to live for today.
I had given up spending any money,though I could afford, as saving habit is in my blood. I hv realised nobody wants my money as they can earn. So spend it on redoing the greenhouse, buying plants & be happy.There was a time when I wanted to buy but could not for want of money. Now I hv resources but no inclination to buy as I hv started to live in a cocoon, self created. I hv to come out of it & not to depend on anybody's support.No body is dependent on me, then why shoul I lean on them. Too bad of me! One should learn from Americans who live for themselves.

The year 2011

The year thatis gone is the most horrific period of my life.I had breast cancer & the treatment lasted for 9to 10 months with chemo radiation.Chemo was the most agonising part with nausea, stomach burning.It is over now & hope it will never attack again to give a nightmare.

New Year

One Decade of 21st Century come to an end,giving way to another decade. Life goes on like the years. One gets aged with it,new responsibilty with new hopes for the future of loved ones comes up, making the life worthy. For the retired from ones job& of family responsibilty, creates a void.There is no commitment to fullfil, nor the worry to earn more, balance the time between work& home.Life becomes a routine with nothing to look forward,except the fear of old age & the resultant ailments.The void created by nucleus family cant be filled.Some how life goes on without any meaning.

Trip to Dallaas.

Another trip to US is on the envil. This time I am accompanied by Vishu for 2 months visit. Divya has planned to visit California, Las vega, Las angalese. If given a choce I wont go, but no choice, just listen. My plants will get a set back.
Mahia is very exited & wants the days roll over quickly. Shwetha does not like as she will miss me. I have to start shopping to go which is boring.

Rain,Rain dont go away.

Little kids sing when it rains,as Rain rain go away. I like rain being born & brought in Kodagu, the land of rain. When I was a little girl it used to rain for 4 months nonstop.There was no gas to cook, so households used to store the fire wood for the rainy season, which was to last for atleast 6 months. The fire wood unloaded in April,followed by the fire wood cutter for a week. In the evening all children to help the elders to stack them in a room near bathroom, protected from rain& wind.When the firewood got stocked the ladies took a long satisfying breath, as they had to cook for a large family, no matter rain or shine.
Early rains used to herald the monsoon,during the 2nd week of may,having a set pattern of evening rain till the proper setting of monsoon. The school would reopen, after a long summer vacation. It was a joy to have new books,new class, teachers& new umbrella.
We used to walk to the school,holding umbrella & books, as the schol was only 10 minutes walk. Heavy rain & the wind

wedding Anniversary

Today is the 39th anniversary of my wedding, which we dont celeberate,as we r adept in celeberating death anniversaries only with all the rituals, which the deceased person will not know to appreciate.