snail pace of administration

After 10 & half months of retirement, finally my papers hv reached the Treasury .I may get the cheque on 17th.Then I have to wait for encashment of leave, then only I can plan to shift to Madikeri. Today I am feeling so empty, as if all my feelings r drained. I cant come over the feeling, I donyt know why? May be the feeling of retirement is stting now. I dont know what the future holds. I have no plan or vision of future, just an empty feeling.

year 2008

New year has opened with a sad news of my niece Usha's expiry,after an attack of jaundice. She has left behind her husband, whom she married without the approval of her parents in filmy style. Later she made up with parents. She has 2 lovely daughters Sonu,Monu, whom she has orphaned now at an young age of 36. It hurts so much whenever an youngsters passes away, irrespective of relation.

The world is getting harsh, everyday we read news of accidental death of young boys & girls, who leave behind their parents to suffer till their death.
Usha was born in Dec 1970 to my cousin Radha. She was a cute child with good features. She discontinued her studies after PU & married at 19.