snail pace of administration

After 10 & half months of retirement, finally my papers hv reached the Treasury .I may get the cheque on 17th.Then I have to wait for encashment of leave, then only I can plan to shift to Madikeri. Today I am feeling so empty, as if all my feelings r drained. I cant come over the feeling, I donyt know why? May be the feeling of retirement is stting now. I dont know what the future holds. I have no plan or vision of future, just an empty feeling.