Thursday, February 26, 2009

Dream which never come off???

I was dreaming of going back to cool lively Madikeri after retirement. But even after 2 years of retirement I am not able to move. Though I have a place of my own there, I cant go as I cant live alone. I have the passion, rather obsession of gardening, for which there is no sufficient place in B'lore. I am 60 now. I dont want anything now, but a little place to plant my plants, nurture them, & to sit back & enjoy flowers.

Dream which never come off


Sunday, February 22, 2009

Wedding season.

The year 2008 started with a sad news of Usha's death, but followed by series of weddings.first it was Deepa's wedding on 10th May. But I was not in India to attend the wedding, as I was in U.S.
It was the ist function at Madikeri after Tammanaiah' death, with an intervel of 26 years. However I was happy to attend the wedding reception on 18th May in B'lore at ISKON. It was followed by Reshmas wedding on 5th June. 6th was the 1st Birth day of Mahia.
On july 10th was the wedding of Shama. The year ended with wedding of Dilip on 24th December. New year started without any bad news. THen Shilpas wedding on 20th Feb2009. One more wedding is to go on Apri;13th, that of Shashi. After that for another 2 years there will be no weddings as the children are young.
Every wedding brings back the memories of my cousins & sister Kusumas wedding which were celeberated at home. Then wedding means the arrival of the dear & near ones a weak before wedding. The marriage preparations, like setting the pendal, inviting the guests, shopping, arraning things etc. There was not much expenses, as it is today but an atmosphere of love & affection, laughing, gossiping, querreling with cousins, getting scoldings from elder sisters,aunties, uncles. Oh it is a world gone by forever, which will never ever come back. Now everything has become routine, or to say a distant feeling, not because we dont have affection with siblings or relations, but lack of time, as everybody is busy with their work. Those leisurely , lazy days are gone.
Almost every body in the family are settled in Bangalore, so no need to go & stay in the wedding house. It is going early in the morning & coming back at night, without much involvement. The depth in relation is lost. Each one is confined in his/her world. No one is bothered about others. It is the attitude which has changed, not the lack of time. We can find time if we have mind to do, but no one wants to set their mind on anyhing, except the daily routine of Monday to Sunday. The days roll to years & the time flies. The beautiful relationship is lapsing.